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Sunday, November 29th, 2009
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8:15 am - Modern Warfare 2 (and a tangential 2012 rant)
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Modern Warfare 2 is inescapable.
I mean, seriously, every gaming/tech news site has covered it. It’s the biggest entertainment release in history. And that controversial airport scene has only fanned the fire.
Thanks to Norstein, I managed to play at least 50% of the single-player campaign. But I didn’t like it.
I wish I could say it was because of technical reasons. But no, the game mechanics are perfect. Of course, it’s chaotic and I died far too many times, but I’m just a casual gamer so that’s understandable.
What I’m really peeved about (and it keeps sticking in my brain) is the sort of characters in the game. They’re all heartless killers with zero personality, and after a while, they even sound like each other. I keep comparing it to Uncharted 2, where yeah Nathan Drake kills thousands of guys, but at least he’s goddamn likeable!
And it scares me. Because apparently people care enough about these jargon-spewing pawns to buy this game in massive quantities and speculate about the identity of Ghost.
To this I say: WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? Ghost has no personality in that game.
I was similarly annoyed with 2012. Why does no one else complain about the rationale they gave for keeping the world-ending thing a secret? I watched angrily as all those virtual humans got crushed, drowned and killed, thinking that goddammit, with three years, the world economy could have reoriented to build more arks instead of relying on a bunch of rich people and the Chinese government.
But of course, instead people rave about seeing all that cool-looking destruction.
Again: WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?
(sigh)
Yeah, essentially I’m angry that people don’t see things in my way. But come on, I think my viewpoint makes sense. I’m just disturbed by how these gut responses don’t come up in other people.
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| Sunday, September 27th, 2009
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7:30 pm - On Google's C&D to Cyanogen
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I'm pissed at Google. And no, it's not because of their claim that the custom ROMs available today are illegal. I always knew that stuff like HTC’s Sense UI and custom keyboard were proprietary and that redistributing them was probably illegal. No, it stems from the fact that, for licensing reasons, Google’s own apps (GMail, Google Talk, Google Maps) and services (calendar and contacts sync) are non-redistributable as well. To this, I say: WTF? I’ve always assumed that those apps were freeware, but apparently Google makes a profit licensing those apps to phone makers so they can preinstall it on their products. I’m sure that’s a great business model. But here’s the problem: Surely you knew that people would customise their ROMs, Google. It’s the whole point of having an open-source stack. So why isn’t there the most basic support for people to do this? Why not provide the minimal amount of support needed so that people can keep their apps when switching ROMs? I believe the reasons are not technical. They aren’t even legal. It’s just that Google doesn’t care. The code is open-source for business reasons, not community reasons. If you want to customise your phone, you’re on your own. And that’s what makes me pissed. Simply put, Google never intended to encourage custom ROMs. And that frankly makes all the difference. For example, look at the Roomba: iRobot practically encourages you to hack the device. I expected Google, filled with hackers and open-source advocates, would encourage the same thing with Android. Instead, we get a code repository that doesn’t even work properly on any actual phones. (The custom ROMs work by modifying extracted images.) So in essence, Google is treating their community the same way Apple tolerates jailbreakers: “What you’re doing is legal, sure, but don’t expect us to make things easy for you.” Make no mistake: I can live without the Google apps. But it’s the reasons why I have to that really piss me off.
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| Monday, August 24th, 2009
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7:09 am - HTC Magic + Android: The overly meandering and completely unnecessary review
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So. about 1-2 months ago, I got myself a HTC Magic. If you don’t know, the HTC Magic is a smartphone running Google’s operating system named Android. The hardware is… eh, somewhat interesting, but the main reason why I laid down S$1,000 to get a new phone is what’s running on that hardware: Android, Android, Android. I was using an iPhone 3G for about 10 months straight before getting this phone, and well, I thought it’d be nice to try something different. And now that I’ve lived with this phone for a considerable period of time, I feel comfortable enough to pass judgement on it. That said, there are already dozens of comprehensive reviews for this phone that exist on the web. What else could I possibly add? Hmm... Good point. *shrugs* Well, that never stopped anyone. ( Read more... )
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| Monday, June 8th, 2009
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3:45 am - Seven Years
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I’ve waited seven years for this. It’s hard to describe what I’ve been waiting for. All I remember is that I spent four years of my life solving endless problem sets, enduring late-night labs with Japanese classes every morning, not knowing why I was working so hard. Then, before and after, there was this crazy thing called conscription where I became part of what I’d been taught since young to be evil and treacherous. All in all, seven years have passed where I felt conflicted between what I did and what I believed. I was working under conditions where, sometimes, I felt it would be better if I were dead. But last Friday, after I made my way to NIE to hand in some registration materials, I walked around the campus a bit, taking in the environment. I made my way home on a bus which served NIE exclusively. The other passengers on the bus, almost stereotypically, were obviously other teachers. I fancied having them as my friends and colleagues in the years to come. And then I realized, almost unconsciously, that I was becoming optimistic. That, seven years after the fact, I could finally start doing what I had wanted to do when I first signed that contract.
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| Friday, May 22nd, 2009
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9:33 pm - On Homosexuality
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I’ve been thinking about the topic of homosexuality for a couple of reasons. - There was this whole hoo-hah in Singapore recently about AWARE-blah-blah-blah-Christian fundamentalists-blah-blah-blah-homosexual agenda. If you can’t guess the plot of this whole saga from these keywords, you’ve been living under a rock.
- As a moderate homosexual who’s starting to plan the remainder of his life (now that it seems I will survive NS after all), I need to consider how this relatively small-but-polarizing aspect of myself will affect my future.
- Isn’t it always fun to think about sex?
That said, it is rather distressing to see anti-homosexual sentiments being expressed so strongly in what is, after all, my home country. But you know, let’s get along. We’re all Singaporeans. We’re all human. We’re all going to die sooner or later, so let’s make the best of our existence together. When I consider the reasons for why homosexuality should be opposed, I am confident that it all comes down to whether you believe homosexuality is innate and unchangeable, or whether it’s malleable through effort. You can make all the arguments about how immoral/unnatural/detrimental homosexuality is, but if it’s unchangeable like a person’s eye colour, then you’re pretty much whining about a problem with no cure. Surprisingly, I actually believe that homosexuality is, to some extent, a choice. I know I can love and care for someone of any gender. If I try hard enough, sex might even be enjoyable. So in a very theoretical sense, I do have a choice. Yet from the number of prominent people who have married but continue to have homosexual encounters (*cough*Larry Craig*cough*Ted Haggard*cough*), it’s clearly a difficult choice, and one that is hard to stick with if you choose deception. So yeah, I’d rather have none of that. And I accept that this choice will come with disadvantages. There will be awkward social moments. I won’t be able to get a HDB flat until I’m 35. I’ll get none of the benefits that married couples may enjoy. It’s part of the deal. But hey, at least I won’t have to look at my wife sadly and think, “Man, she deserves better than this.”
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| Tuesday, January 27th, 2009
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9:19 pm - The Obligatory Post
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Hey, wasn’t there was some convention somewhere? I can’t be sure… But oh well, I couldn’t make it to that convention, so here I am, hammering out some silly blog entry on the Windows 7 beta. (So if you notice anything disgustingly wrong with the formatting of this post, blame it on Windows Live Writer.) In short, Windows 7 is Vista with a new coat of paint. But you already knew that. What you’re really looking for is some sharp analysis and witty shtick. So I’m sorry to say, I got nothin’. *sad trombone* Except, well, maybe this. You’ve probably heard quite a bit about Windows 7’s “new” taskbar and how it’s a Mac OS X rip-off. That much is true. But it’s also a good thing, because honestly, it was almost too easy to get the old taskbar overflowing with buttons. There was one issue with the new taskbar, however, that annoyed me enough to file this piece of feedback: In the Windows taskbar, when hovering the mouse from one program to another, the thumbnail pane animates from displaying the previous program's windows to displaying the newly highlighted program's windows. It's pretty, but a little disorienting since the windows from one program have no logical relation to the windows from another program. Having the pane of thumbnails animate has two disadvantages: - It feels sluggish since I have to wait for the animation to finish before my mouse knows where to click.
- It feels illogical since I expect the thumbnail pane to "belong" to the button I hovered over. Having the pane slide in from its previous display violates this.
A solution would be to remove this sliding animation and just have the pane appear in its final position. Compare this to how tooltips appear when hovering over toolbar buttons. The tooltip does not animate when moving from one button to another, and neither should the thumbnail pane. So if this issue gets fixed when the final release gets rolled out, you know who to tip. *whistles*
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| Monday, January 12th, 2009
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9:02 pm - *taptap*
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| Sunday, January 11th, 2009
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2:13 am - Breaktime
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Whoa, so many things have been affecting my mood lately.
First, been having all kinds of body aches (mostly on the neck) and tensions (in the wrist) lately, possibly a result of the unhealthy diet I've been having in recent weeks. I keep trying to sleep it off, but I doubt that's actually helping. Gotta face the facts and start exercising before I get a stroke or something.
Second, work is kinda stressful. I get pulled around doing all kinds of ad-hoc projects with tight deadlines, and having to answer to the department head is still rather intimidating even if he's a friendly guy. I'm also handling two tuition students in my spare time, something that I'd enjoy if I only had more time to prepare for my lessons.
Third, social issues. I hate having to manage the office politics, where I'm an NSF who has been "promoted" to work under the department head, so all of sudden people are acting extra-nice to me and stuff like that. I've also opened up to the other NSFs more, setting up a kind of social expectation for me to continue the bingeing habits that they've observed. ("Come on lah, you can eat another one. I've seen you do it.")
Last, spiritual and philosophical issues. I need some purpose in life to motivate everything that I do. Otherwise, well, I just sit around and rot. Usually that purpose comes from loyalty to other people, such as my friends or my boss, but in the end I keep expecting some kind of reward from them which might never arrive. This clearly doesn't work and I need to find some new source of motivation that comes from within, but if there's any it's hidden far too deep for me to dig it out anytime soon.
So yeah, that's the stuff that's been on my mind lately.
My apologies for being so emo.
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| Thursday, January 8th, 2009
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5:27 am - Chaotic Thoughts from the (Not-So) Old Mousie
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| Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
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3:06 am - Dinner, Cohesion, and a New Year
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Just came back a few hours ago from (yet another) unofficial NSF cohesion dinner thing, and I really should be sleeping now, but...
Wow, 2008 is really gonna be over.
Years are just an artificial division of time, I know, but so much craziness has occurred in the past 12 months that everyone is looking for an excuse to forget the past and just move on. I'm no exception.
So, I'll be looking forward to 2009 with hope and optimism.
And if some things go wrong, eh, just too bad.
I've always been a pessimist, but hey, there's always a chance to turn around. And that's the sentiment I want to share with ya tonight.
Yeah. *sniff*
Now get off my lawn, ya darned kids!
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| Monday, December 29th, 2008
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10:50 pm - Ballooooony
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| Sunday, December 28th, 2008
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12:59 am - Pre-Duty Update
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Was considering writing a full entry here since it's been *gasp* three months since I've made a squeak on this journal, but unfortunately I have counter duty starting at 0700 hrs tomorrow so I really should get some sleep... But at least I finally got off my butt and downloaded a proper LJ client so I don't have to use the web interface.
Hopefully I'll post something longer when I come back Monday, but before that, a belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to y'all! Thanks to everyone who sent me greetings, and sorry I didn't reply straight away. But aren't you glad 2008 is almost over? :3
In the meantime, keep rocking. And mousie's off to sleep.
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| Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
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3:01 am - Wow, it's 3AM in the morning.
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So, can't really sleep tonight and feeling a bit more emotional than usual. (Dang, I thought my medication was supposed to fix that!) I think I'm slowly beginning to realize that I do have issues to confront after all if I intend to live comfortably for the next six years.
Or maybe no one really gets to live comfortably for very long. Oh well.
Meanwhile, time to take some non-caffeinated Panadol and hope the sandman catches up to me soon.
(P.S. I am using teh Twitter more frequently now, if thou art interested in that kind of thing.)
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| Sunday, August 24th, 2008
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6:20 pm - Cake Wrecks
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| Sunday, August 17th, 2008
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9:25 pm - Combatants in the Game of Life
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I've been feeling pretty good lately, definitely not as emotionally unstable as I was back in my final year of college. But just moments ago as I laid on my bed waiting to fall asleep, I realized that I've essentially gone back to the pattern of self-destructive behavior that I used to hate about myself.
Binging and over-eating? Check.
Spending money immediately after earning it? Check.
Complete disregard for appearance? Check.
Complete disregard for personal hygiene? Check.
The only difference is that this time I don't hate myself for it. To borrow a phrase from Merlin Mann, I feel like I've given up on being a combatant in the Game of Life, and somehow I'm totally okay with that.
But should I really be cool with that?
I don't know. I certainly feel pretty happy, and isn't that all that matters?
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| Tuesday, July 29th, 2008
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7:55 pm - Premonition
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The good news is that FA is going to be back shortly.
On the other hand, after seeing a certain well-regarded company crash disastrously with their online launch, I'm not so sure that FA will last beyond 24 hours after it gets back online. You know what they say: the best-laid plans of mice and men often go EPIC FAIL.
So one little voice can't possibly stop the masses, but if you can, try not to overload FA by uploading and downloading excessively the moment it comes back on. We wouldn't want Trogdor to burninate itself.
And that's a friendly PSA from your neighborhood mousie.
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| Saturday, July 19th, 2008
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1:37 pm - Hoodie Fox + Rumination
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In general, I'm not terribly keen on improving my drawing skills. I draw for fun, but once I start thinking about it seriously, it kinda ceases to be enjoyable.
In a way, it's a lot like physics. I liked the subject a lot more when it was easier and didn't go into crazy-tensor-land. But unfortunately, you simply have to go through that unpleasantness in order to say (with some authority) that hey, I'm a physicist.
On the other hand, there has always been one thing that's bothered me about my own drawings, and it's a point that gelidien had mentioned to me before: those pencil lines are ugly. So, monsieur foxie up there is my first attempt at producing a picture with (almost) all sketch lines removed.
Also new: an attempt at texturing fur by using the brushes described here. The hoodie is, unfortunately, still textureless. :(
I must admit, I actually had fun trying these new things.
But sometimes, I have to remind myself: Leave art to the real experts.
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| Thursday, July 17th, 2008
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8:07 pm - Dr. Horrible ain't that horrible
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So, you probably know this if you're a Joss Whedon fan, but this is the week for catching Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog for free online. Acts I and II are online now, with Act III coming on the 19th. It starts off slow, but once the musical numbers kick in and Neil Patrick Harris does his thing, it's pretty darn amusing (to me, at least).
And of course, as a furry I instantly picked up on Bad Horse (fear his terrible death whinny!) and the gratuitous macro scene at the end of Act II.
Oh god, my brain is clearly broken.
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| Tuesday, July 15th, 2008
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9:05 pm - Optimistically
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I'll admit I've been listening to the loltastic (and most definitely NSFW) KnotCast, which I first remember being mentioned by madcoyote during his brief visit here, and then reminded of it again by thedarklurker via his oh-so-delicious AC swag.
After getting over the fact that all four hosts are omg they're soo gay, I realized that most of their advice boils down to "wait until you're 21, then you can move out and do whatever the fuck you want".
In general, that's good advice. But it goes completely against the cultural norm here, which is that kids aren't expected to move out until they get married and have a family of their own.
For most folks, this isn't that big of a deal.
But the reality somehow hit me somewhere along the way. All the shameful glances I've made at good-looking guys. Trying to act nonchalant as I walk along Siloso Beach. Do I really want to live like this for the rest of my life?
And then the morally difficult question. Do you really want to stay with your parents forever?
Optimistically, all I have to do is wait. While other furs have to wait until they're 21, I may have to wait until I'm 30. It sounds bad, but honestly, there's so much to do along the way, maybe I won't mind the wait after all.
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4:52 am - Well, so much for the PS3.
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